Your name danced across my heart today,
touching me with the memory of your smile.
I felt the sorrow of your loss all over again,
now embraced by the joy of such a precious gift –
the gift of having had you in my life.
It’s such a lovely image to think of sorrow being embraced by joy. It’s like love pouring in to the places where your heart is broken. Thinking about it now, perhaps that is what Rumi’s words refer to, “ The wound is the place where the Light enters you.”
Loss and grief are so very difficult to get through. They say that time heals all wounds but I truly don’t think we ever get over or heal from the loss of a Dear Loved One.
One of the things that stays with me personally are smiles. Out of the blue a smile can cross my mind of somebody that I have loved and lost. In that moment of remembrance, I admit that I feel the pain of that loss all over again. It’s just as strong as the day that I had to say good-bye.
The pain now though is embraced by joy as I think how lucky I am to feel such love, even amidst such pain, that I was blessed to have you in my life, to know your smile, the beauty of your presence, the Gift of your life.
Loss and Grief will never be easy. But instead of trying to get through the pain, instead of trying to cover the wound, I will learn to allow the Light of Love to enter the wound, to nourish my heart and continue to pour the Love into the crevices of my beautifully broken heart.